Pillar of Strength And Ultimate Inspiration

 
The pillar of strength and ultimate inspiration --- that definitely defines who my mother is to me.

Since the day that my father passed away, I grieved,  was very much frusrated and wondered why him, why our family, why at that time when we needed him the most. I was so young  then. And could not understand the complexities of life.

That lowest moment of my life was devastating because I was definitely a papa's girl.

But young as I was, it was the time when I realized that each and every moment with our loved ones are special. Those gestures and words must not be left hidden and unspoken. And the strength that my mother showed to us (a nine years old me and my little sister turning one year old) made me mature.

Since I was the elder, the bulk of expectations was passed unto me. I was never pressured or anything by my mom but I felt that it was then my responsibility and the need to take good care of them is a must. Nevertheless, I strive and work so hard to finish my studies so I could make my mother proud and happy. And I hope I did, for her happiness and the welfare of our family is two of the most important things to me.

But why leave her in Dumaguete? Trust me. It was one of my hardest decisions in life and it is a decision full of good intentions. In search to provide and help them, I took the courage to leave my home town for the first time. I was very much afraid but the thought of helping my mother weighs more to me.

When I was first here in the Metro, it was cruelly sad. All my friends and family were back there and, you know, those oh-so-sad thoughts would definitely come in the night or when you aren't busy. Not to mention the not so good experiences I have during my first few months of stay here which made it more difficult.

As I moved on, started to travel and get inspired with what I have seen more, I enjoy it very much but at the back of my mind I wish to share these kind of trips with my mom (and my sis) too.

We may not have traveled to different places that often, but we definitely have traveled in life together and sailed even through the toughest waves we have met. It was not always pleasant but knowing she is there beside me all the time makes it worth it. It makes those experiences bearable and special.

One day when I could go back home, they would be my travel buddies and we'll treat our mom that special/mother-day-of-a-kind trip that she totally deserves. It does not equal to the love, care and all the sacrifices that she made for us but I hope to let her know how great of a mother she is to us.

To my pillar of strength and ultimate inspiration, a very special mothers day to you, Mama.

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A Pinoy Travel Bloggers' Blog Carnival Entry for the May 2012

Hosted by Alvin Sabay 

Theme: "Traveling With Your Mom: A Mother's Day Special"

 

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